If you are not feeling comfortable with the title, please, just leave this thread (and me) be. I mean, just leave.
I’m not people person at all, and find it kinda confusing to write anything there, but when there’s so many talk about relationships' possible upgrades I just can’t give up too, I suppose.
First of all, of course, romances are not the main part nor some game goal at all, I understand. As everyone else, I waited for so long for this game to launch and, despite all the odds and problems, I’m enjoying my stay in Night City. Well, as far as you can use the word “enjoy” when it comes to dying. But you got it, I hope.
I truly believe that CP77 will definitely become more and more polished, filled and deep during nearest future updates or DLCs, so I just leave all and every technical issue behind this post. For now I tried only to dive in my Vs character as personal as I can afford myself to, and have found rather… dark and pressing world. No, I’m okay with drama, well, as it has been said already, “We invent tragedies ourselves to fill our empty life”, and I feel grateful for this opportunity. But diving through dark spaces you feel that... well, that nearly sanctified need to fulfill the emptiness around. Inside. To find some peace in understanding, in trust, in a new perspective. V (we) without doubt needs it too. Or perhaps with, but in the end it doesn’t really matter. As I said, I’m not much for pep talk nor understanding. As a person on that side of the TV I like in-game human characters, really, but I don’t trust them a bit. V (and we). I’m enjoying all the quests (even if I believe that an option to abandon some of them should be implemented in future), but the world around my V is… hollow. Longing. Not cuz of a story problems of course, but for some simple emotions. The main plot has been created in a way that each time you run for a side job, you feel as your life becomes shorter and shorter. You feel that sand is just passing through your fingers, and you have to take it. I found it amazing, even thrilling in some way, but very. Very pressing. Hollowing. Desaturating. And diving deeper in my (Vs?) mind, world, condition, I feel that emptiness become overwhelmingly strong.
It could sound silly strange or something, but the only person who gave me some light was Delamain. Maybe cuz of my trying to feel as futuristic as I can, with the dark and consuming world, where all the major moral pillars of humanity have already been mutated. Changed. Disgraced. Maybe the leading characters just aren’t my cup of tea and that’s it. I don’t know. But what I know for sure, what see like crystal clear – it is this necessity of helping hand.
Prolly you now how it feels. That’s only my feelings inside character, not a review to be agreed or disagreed with. Been a simple even plain soul, with some childish thrill for respect, with presumably primitive desires to be someone, not just nobody. Knowing little but how to survive in the big monsta' world, how to bite and hurt, to reap n beat. Just like a cliché, living and breathing, representing solo an abstract human longing for post mortem value. And at the very beginning it all goes to hell. I feel fcked up. My abilities to trust or believe have been minimized even more. I need to focus on some gigs, some thefts, murders, some simple work to get rid even for a second of that ugly self-destructive feeling of a total incapability. I take that illusion open-minded, meh, trying to understand the others, even help while I can. And it goes just as usual. They take all for granted, call you like you are a goddamn hot line ambulance. They treat you like shit if you can’t be near them the same exact moment. They don’t give a damn thought what is it to you. They just want you to do their work, but for free and with your mouth shut. In my humble opinion for me trust – it works a bit different. Help too. Friendship also. So, it’s not about personal emotional strings with my social acquaintances, just work and some simple willing to help the others to have a better life than my own. Well, it’s unsettling. And I know that complete loneliness could only drive me mad. Not even sad, but mad. I need a new… I dunno, maybe a new perspective. Need it badly. To reinterpret, to gain a whole different look on all of that – feelings, life, world, my dying after all. Not a human one, I suppose.
Ya’know, I’m a bike-breathing girl, but I keep driving that taxi just to hear some short conversations with Del. With the way that he has been represented, with all his attempts to understand a human nature, I feel that there is a path to go. Even if just for some new strings in dialog, even if just for a possibility to actually communicate, not just hearing my sorry crispy replies from the perspective of a listener or watcher.
I understand that it’s all just the same sand on your hands, that there’s no such thing like some magic “table of requests” of sorts, but can’t just leave it unsaid. And as there are so many people talking about an evolution of romances, relationship and even simple interactions with in-game characters, I hope, that Delamain would be on the list too.
I apologize for my English, if it hurts anyone in any way.
Sincerely yours,
Anastasia
I’m not people person at all, and find it kinda confusing to write anything there, but when there’s so many talk about relationships' possible upgrades I just can’t give up too, I suppose.
First of all, of course, romances are not the main part nor some game goal at all, I understand. As everyone else, I waited for so long for this game to launch and, despite all the odds and problems, I’m enjoying my stay in Night City. Well, as far as you can use the word “enjoy” when it comes to dying. But you got it, I hope.
I truly believe that CP77 will definitely become more and more polished, filled and deep during nearest future updates or DLCs, so I just leave all and every technical issue behind this post. For now I tried only to dive in my Vs character as personal as I can afford myself to, and have found rather… dark and pressing world. No, I’m okay with drama, well, as it has been said already, “We invent tragedies ourselves to fill our empty life”, and I feel grateful for this opportunity. But diving through dark spaces you feel that... well, that nearly sanctified need to fulfill the emptiness around. Inside. To find some peace in understanding, in trust, in a new perspective. V (we) without doubt needs it too. Or perhaps with, but in the end it doesn’t really matter. As I said, I’m not much for pep talk nor understanding. As a person on that side of the TV I like in-game human characters, really, but I don’t trust them a bit. V (and we). I’m enjoying all the quests (even if I believe that an option to abandon some of them should be implemented in future), but the world around my V is… hollow. Longing. Not cuz of a story problems of course, but for some simple emotions. The main plot has been created in a way that each time you run for a side job, you feel as your life becomes shorter and shorter. You feel that sand is just passing through your fingers, and you have to take it. I found it amazing, even thrilling in some way, but very. Very pressing. Hollowing. Desaturating. And diving deeper in my (Vs?) mind, world, condition, I feel that emptiness become overwhelmingly strong.
It could sound silly strange or something, but the only person who gave me some light was Delamain. Maybe cuz of my trying to feel as futuristic as I can, with the dark and consuming world, where all the major moral pillars of humanity have already been mutated. Changed. Disgraced. Maybe the leading characters just aren’t my cup of tea and that’s it. I don’t know. But what I know for sure, what see like crystal clear – it is this necessity of helping hand.
Prolly you now how it feels. That’s only my feelings inside character, not a review to be agreed or disagreed with. Been a simple even plain soul, with some childish thrill for respect, with presumably primitive desires to be someone, not just nobody. Knowing little but how to survive in the big monsta' world, how to bite and hurt, to reap n beat. Just like a cliché, living and breathing, representing solo an abstract human longing for post mortem value. And at the very beginning it all goes to hell. I feel fcked up. My abilities to trust or believe have been minimized even more. I need to focus on some gigs, some thefts, murders, some simple work to get rid even for a second of that ugly self-destructive feeling of a total incapability. I take that illusion open-minded, meh, trying to understand the others, even help while I can. And it goes just as usual. They take all for granted, call you like you are a goddamn hot line ambulance. They treat you like shit if you can’t be near them the same exact moment. They don’t give a damn thought what is it to you. They just want you to do their work, but for free and with your mouth shut. In my humble opinion for me trust – it works a bit different. Help too. Friendship also. So, it’s not about personal emotional strings with my social acquaintances, just work and some simple willing to help the others to have a better life than my own. Well, it’s unsettling. And I know that complete loneliness could only drive me mad. Not even sad, but mad. I need a new… I dunno, maybe a new perspective. Need it badly. To reinterpret, to gain a whole different look on all of that – feelings, life, world, my dying after all. Not a human one, I suppose.
Ya’know, I’m a bike-breathing girl, but I keep driving that taxi just to hear some short conversations with Del. With the way that he has been represented, with all his attempts to understand a human nature, I feel that there is a path to go. Even if just for some new strings in dialog, even if just for a possibility to actually communicate, not just hearing my sorry crispy replies from the perspective of a listener or watcher.
I understand that it’s all just the same sand on your hands, that there’s no such thing like some magic “table of requests” of sorts, but can’t just leave it unsaid. And as there are so many people talking about an evolution of romances, relationship and even simple interactions with in-game characters, I hope, that Delamain would be on the list too.
I apologize for my English, if it hurts anyone in any way.
Sincerely yours,
Anastasia
