I'm all there with you mate.Intro
A frequent complaint about this game is that there aren't any truly happy endings and that V is doomed no matter what. Initially when I did the Panam ending I thought so too. But then a few days later I reloaded my save and decided to re-experience the ending to see if I could detect any glimmer of hope to an otherwise bittersweet ending. And boy did I find hope.
Now I'll spare you the details of the Tarot cards since you're probably familiar with them already and it's been discussed to death, but the TLDR is that Misty says you have a good life ahead of you. I personally believe Misty and her cards since they've been bang on accurate about the other endings and about Jackie.
But what I really want to explore is what happens at the tent where the Basilisk is stored (final mission of Nomad ending). This is the part of the end where you say your final words with Mitch and cross the border with Panam. If you head to the desk just before you board the Basilisk you'll find a data shard - "The Iliad".
I want to stress that these are just my personal interpretations. Others may look at it differently or discard it entirely. But I believe the developers have intentionally placed this data-shard here for a reason.
The Iliad
Here's what the shard says and I've added my interpretation:
The Aldecaldos are one of the few people that have truly treated V like family which is why I regard them as 'home' and native land to me implies the great outdoors. I genuinely believe this poem suggests that the Aldecaldos ending is "positive" and that V will probably find a solution to his problem in an expansion. Especially as this corroborates with Misty's tarot cards (which I trust for reasons provided earlier).
- "If I abide here and war about the city of Trojans [Night City], then lost is my home [mother nature with the Aldecaldos], but my renown shall be imperishable [maintain a strong reputation in Night City - this is basically the Johnny ending where you return as V].
- "But if I return home [mother nature] to my dear native land [the great outdoors] then lost is my glorious renown [Night City reputation], yet shall my life long endure, neither shall the doom of death come soon upon me [hinting at a cure to the relic]."
My main point has also always been that I want to play it, experience that.
Its a videogame after all.
But again, I had the exact same impression. Granted I havent read the shard.
Something I've neglected far too much I think.
On my second run I'm honna do it in a far slower pace so my brain has more time to assimilate everytjing thrown at me.
First run was as I've described numeeous times a rollercoaster.