After about 112 hours of a 100% playthrough (one gig isn't finished because of a bug) I want to give my impression about the ending I had. Until yesterday I tried to avoid any spoilers when it comes to the endings, so I couldn't influence my decision in any possible way. Anyway, after reading this thread I am impressed, how many of you ask for a happy, or at least "solved", ending for the whole engram thing.
I finished with the Devil ending uploading my soul to Mikoshi and I'm perfectly fine with it. In my playthrough I didn't rush any of the questlines, just let them come naturally. A few gigs, some world exploring, checking the journal: oh didn't meet xy for a long time, let's go there. It surely took some time and I understand, that this kind of playthrough isn't made for everybody. But as I progressed, I never got the feeling, that any side character ever got too attached to V. It more felt like they are all dealing with their own heavy problems, V is trying her best to help, but most of the time still gets rejected in the end, when it comes to help for the Relic problem.
With Panam: Got friendzoned and told her my story at the very end: She gave me a vague and somehow not very comforting answer.
With River: I rejected his approaches and everything felt very platonic. I was happy that he found his way in Night City, though.
With Judy: I romanced her, still it never felt, like we are very close. Her mistrust and her grief about Evelyn stays for me until the end. Preventing her from leaving Night City just because of one night and a superficial relationship, felt so wrong after all.
With Johnny: I hated him at the start, understood his actions after a while and still had to let him down in the end. And I felt so very sorry for him, but I felt like there was no other way for the both of us. After meeting Alt with the Voodoo Boys he told me, that he would sacrifice himself for me, if it would be necessary. Still he was full of hate and dissapointment, when I decided to go with Hanako. Understandable, and still... it made me so sad, that we can't leave each other as friends.
With Takemura: And he was the only one that was there for me, from the very beginning until the end. He promised me, to get rid of the Relic, he helped me to contact Hanako. Hell, he was the only one, who actual seemed to care about V, while everybode else just messes around with their own problems. So my ultimate task was to fullfill his wish for revenge on Yorinobu and trust on him to fullfill mine.
So here's why this all felt so organic and right for me: you are in this big city, everybody is fighting for themselves, everybody is struggling with grave danger or near death, you help people, you get close to them, but in the end, you are fighting for yourselve, you can't rely on anybody and this depressing feeling of a city, that slowly devours you, is carried to the end in a convincing way. So, in an ultimate act of self-preservation I sacrificed my body to the very company, that killed Jackie (and sent Takemura off from his duty, like an unloved pet) to be hopefully "reborn" and kill Arasaka (or Saburo) after that from inside out.
But, it is left open. Will Arasaka keep you for the next 50 years as an engram like they did with Johnny or will they ever give you the chance to return?
I totally understand, that this openess isn't made for everybody, but I'm so so happy, that this didn't turn out to be a cheesy-weesy "Let's ride into sunset with your love" ending or a "you live long and happy forever" ending, because that wouldn't fit the game at all. It's just dark with a glimmer of hopefulness, it portrays V as a true Solo, not depending on any vague relationship, it shows the power of the corporations, when you ultimately have to rely on them to give you any spark of hope.