I know this is unrelated to the whole subject at the moment.
But, I have few things to say.
If anyone got hurt or I insulted in some sort of way, i want to say i'm sorry.
I want to take things differently from now on, i need to go over few stuff, and start a new page. It feels like i have been doing everything wrong in the last few days.
I don't know what to say other than that...I feel like i owe an apology...this pain inside of me, is haunting.
I want to be a better person, but i'm not sure how...i want to feel proud of my deeds...make others happy...I want to make you happy.
I feel like a walking shame due my last deeds, and I do not deserve all the privileges I get from the outside world....I need to start over...leave...think...feel...I don't know what else.
I once closed my eyes, and thought about my future...i did not smile....those sudden change of thoughts...i'm not the man people think i am...they feel their minds with stupid imagination that i'm something greater than i am...their eyes are an illusion...
This is probably babbling now, but i need to fix this...i need to do this now.
Hope you'll forgive me for my mistakes...