I appreciate the understanding, trully. These days have been strangely lonely.
I had forgotten how long its been. Seven years? Fuck... Have I been waiting so damn long? Perhaps I was too civil.
Polish is good but this line of logic has lead to disaster before. And using that metaphor: if you polish something enough, even steel, you will eventually have only grit and wasted time.
Its funny you mention blood pressure, thats why Im being so persistant I guess. I know nothing will change and my words and opinions dont matter. Im just one person, why should they? But, I did want to play this game. I dont think I can hold out that long like this, til september.
Make no mistake I will try. I will fight and struggle and try damn it. But thats a lot of months to hold out.