Hey you all, first, sorry for any bad english, I'm trying my best.
As probably some others around here, I was one of the thousands who sent in a piece of music for the official music contest a long time ago. I knew chances of winning were slim from the beginning, but when it was certain that my music would not be a part of the new radio station, it really put me down. I never won anything, was never part of anything, my music never had any impact on anything.
Time moved on and I got over the initial feeling of grief, but now with the hypetrain rolling again for the soon-to-come release, I can't help but still feel seriously bad. This also killed all my interest for the upcoming DLC, I used to absolutely LOVE everything about cyberpunk, but since the contest went down, I don't have any positive connection to all of this any more. Whenever I hear or see anything regarding growl fm or the upcoming expansion, I just have to think about why I couldn't make it in. I wanted it so bad, I gave it my best, seems like it wasn't enough.
I know this is irrational and stupid, I know that every musician who took part in the contest deserved to win equally, still I can't help it. It feels like this was my once in a lifetime chance to be part of something I really admire, something to be proud of, and I blew it. People say that you should always try, even if you fail you took your chance etc. but I found that to be untrue. The dream of what could have been would feel way better than the certain knowledge that I failed and missed my only chance to become a part of CP77. So yeah, I believe that I should have never submitted my entry. Well, that's it, unfortunately not excited for the DLC and just wanted to share some feels...
As probably some others around here, I was one of the thousands who sent in a piece of music for the official music contest a long time ago. I knew chances of winning were slim from the beginning, but when it was certain that my music would not be a part of the new radio station, it really put me down. I never won anything, was never part of anything, my music never had any impact on anything.
Time moved on and I got over the initial feeling of grief, but now with the hypetrain rolling again for the soon-to-come release, I can't help but still feel seriously bad. This also killed all my interest for the upcoming DLC, I used to absolutely LOVE everything about cyberpunk, but since the contest went down, I don't have any positive connection to all of this any more. Whenever I hear or see anything regarding growl fm or the upcoming expansion, I just have to think about why I couldn't make it in. I wanted it so bad, I gave it my best, seems like it wasn't enough.
I know this is irrational and stupid, I know that every musician who took part in the contest deserved to win equally, still I can't help it. It feels like this was my once in a lifetime chance to be part of something I really admire, something to be proud of, and I blew it. People say that you should always try, even if you fail you took your chance etc. but I found that to be untrue. The dream of what could have been would feel way better than the certain knowledge that I failed and missed my only chance to become a part of CP77. So yeah, I believe that I should have never submitted my entry. Well, that's it, unfortunately not excited for the DLC and just wanted to share some feels...